I Cried Myself to Sleep


Okay, this most likely will only be of interest to family members… if anyone at all. I am not quite sure why I got to thinking about this.

We moved to Italy in 1964 for a stay of a little over three years.  My father would have been 33 and my mother 30, turning 31 in September of that year.  I don’t know about you, but in my early 30s I still had a lot of growing up to do, but then again, I took a long time to mature.  I am not sure I am there yet, and I hear my second childhood knocking (down?) on the door.

I would have just turned the ripe old age of 12 when we moved there.  My father had already been there for two or three months, and he had an Continue reading “I Cried Myself to Sleep”

My Mossy Address Book

“A rolling stone gathers no moss”

If you were to sum up my life in one phrase the above aphorism might just be it.  I spent the first 18 years of my life more or less as a military brat.  I literally had 13 changes of schools before I graduated high school.  This includes one school that I was in for a single day.  I have described the last 30 years of my working life as that of a computer gypsy, moving around to take different jobs in Information Technology.  I did have a stable period in between (at least as far as physical location) when I lived in Arkansas and we were getting kids through school.

In such a life people come and go.  It is just a fact of life that you get used to.  I do not know how many times I have said to someone, “have a good life”, knowing I would never be seeing them again. I have on occasions tried to maintain relationships over time and distance, but this must be two sided and has very seldom worked out.

I have now reached the age where many of my relatives, friends and acquaintances are passing away.  This is sincerely a sadness just in itself. If a person truly touches you, they take up residence in some part of your psyche.  I have sometimes described this as feeling like I have ghosts running around my soul.    At times it has felt a little crowded in there.

And now add an additional sadness  due  to this technical  age.  After the fact of someone’s death, sometimes much later, I will come across their information in one of my address books or contact lists.  I have such a hard time deleting the information, it feels like deleting the memory of that person.  Sometimes the address\contact card will remain in there for years.  I just cannot delete it.

On the positive side, it does make you stop for a minute and remember the person when you stumble across it.

Sigh.  We march on.

Keep well.